love and dreams: There was never 'we'.

People say if you want to do something, you should do it anyway, no matter what, because you don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. Sometime I just wish I was a b****, so then I wouldn't care about other people's feelings. Yesterday night I was thinking about writing a long message about why we are not talking anymore, whey it happened, wy we didn't talk it out as we usually do, etc. But then I realized that I couldn't do it anymore.

I'm pretty you sure you've already forgotten me, but the thing is that I miss you. Even if I try to persuade myself the opposite. I honetsly do not understand how that happened. What did I do wrong? Everything happens for better, right? But how can this be for better? Why did I call you my best friend if you keep forgeting about me? I don't like reminding about myself and I don't wanna impose myself either. I hope I will have enough of srength to stop myself and don't message first.

First time, I regret something what I've done and I can't even find a good reason about it. I don't know what will happen next, but this time I feel like it is the end and I'll do my best to not message you first.

I don't wanna run after you. Done with that.

BTW I'm learning how to not judge people and stuff, so I don't wanna talk about things like these with anyone else. It's kinda killing me.

Sometimes the truth hurts, but it's better than sweet lies.