Free.

Wow. I've been waiting to feel like this since all this happened. Do you know that feeling of being free and when you don't think about some random person 24/7? That's a wonderful feeling. I missed it so much.
A couple weeks ago, before falling asleep I promised myself that I would wake up a new person the next day. Not like a new personality, but I needed my feeling to start over.I mean you probably know what I mean, ha?

I finally realized what I need to focus on and what choices I should make. My inside world is finally back and I totally belong to myself. Once Hannah said to me that 'missing someone is a part of moving on'. I didn't really believe her that time, but now I know that she was right. And you know what? You should never be afraid of missing people as I was. Firstly, as Ellie said 'a person will come around and if they don't then it's not a friend you want to have. Honestly, it's my rule #1 in life.
Another thing that I wanted to say was that looked at this situation and finally saw that I asked too much. I didn't ask anyone else for so many things E-V-E-R. It's kinda funny that I haven't noticed it earlier. Whatever, though.
I can't really make it sound optimistic, BUT life is getting bette :) And hopefully I won't have that many complicated moments or at least I won't try to make everything complicated.
SO! Life is good :) Just take it easier!
All in all, best friends always stay here no matter what, right Ellie?

Feeling free is an awesome feeling!